I'll be honest with you-- I've come to a point, to I think a season in my life, when I am starting to really miss and really yearn for being a homebody. I would say for about the last six months, I have been a true social butterfly. I've been out and about, making new friends, having some amazing travel experiences, and getting out of my comfort zone. It's been a beautiful and wild ride, a whirlwind, but also something I had really needed in my life for awhile.
I remember around October of 2020, I was sitting in the car with my sister, and we were asking one another the question, what do you wish you had more of in your life right now? And the thing that I told her was I wish I had a good group of friends that consisted of both guys and girls. For the longest time, I had only my good girlfriends and there is something about having that mixed group, the addition of that brotherly friendship in the mix, that I really longed for.
God is so good because at the end of 2020, I met an amazing prayer group that consisted of young men and women who I can now call friends. It's amazing how fast God works sometimes...
Our rosary group quickly expanded, and soon enough we were going on some amazing adventures.
And even a group adventure to Hawaii.
If you would have told me in 2020 that 2021 would be like this, I don't know if I could even process that. I just never could have imagined it was possible to have such a wonderful friend group of men and women of faith, amazing people who I've been able to grow closer to and who mutually build one another up. I am truly grateful to God for all these amazing memories. I don't know how else to express it, but I feel so much awe and gratitude for this gift I know is from God.
At the same time, now a year later, I feel like things are toning down just a notch. With all the running around and being among friends, I feel like my heart and soul have been aching for some time alone. I've been missing my solitude.
Someone asked me what I am looking forward to this weekend, and I told them, "Just being at home and doing nothing." And that's exactly what I did. But even though I have been a homebody almost this whole weekend, I really do feel like I just can't. get. enough. of. it.
Is it possible to take a whole week off and just be at home and do nothing? Enjoying my favorite shows, doing my nails, writing, listening to music, taking walks, watching sunsets. All of this, just in my solitude?
It's funny because before 2021, I had so much time for solitude. Now, I am learning that if I want solitude, I am going to have to make time for it. Maybe that doesn't seem like an important reality, but for me, it's something I've never had to deal with. I've never had to learn how to prioritize my time recollecting myself and retreating into my warm and lovely solitude. It's something that's just always naturally been there.
I saw these pictures on Pinterest, and they just totally inspire me to re-find that sweet solitude at home.
Sometimes, we feel a little worn out or melancholy. And when that happens, a little time away from everyone and everything is exactly what our heart needs to feel like it's back in its place.
I really do feel like God is calling me back into this solitude. A place where I can recenter myself. A place of comfort and coziness.
I think that to have a full life, it’s so important to balance the times of reflection and aloneness with the times of connection with others. There is a time and place for everything…
I’m looking forward to these autumn months as a season of going inward, reflecting on all the good things God has given me, and taking the time to slow down and allow my heart to find rest in the stillness.