So in case you haven’t heard yet, about a month ago, I received an email from my landlady starting with, “Hi Stephanie, please be advised that we are giving you 30 days notice to vacate the studio...”.
My first reaction was complete shock. I had been living in my tiny little space for about a year and a half now, and have really made it my home. It was my first place that I could really call my own, that I could decorate, invite friends, where I could escape and go to my quiet little sanctuary to pray and be close to God. So when I first read the email, it just didn’t feel real.
And then, my second reaction surprised me.
At first, I didn’t know how to feel— if I should cry or feel depressed. And then, I was surprised to find that the feeling that came over me was not sadness at all.
Instead, it was this strange feeling of joy and freedom.
I don’t know, but the best way to describe it is I felt like there was this bubble around my heart and it was expanding and expanding. I felt like laughing because instead of feeling sad, I realized I felt really open and free.
It’s funny because I feel like your heart sometimes knows things even before you do.
I’m not sure what’s coming, but I get this sense that it’s a time for me to grow in a new way.
I learned so much about myself during the time I lived here. I learned how to pray consistently, how to trust God more, what it means to be a good friend, and I started my blog and learned how to be happy as a single person.
As I move into my new place next week, which is a shared household with three other women, I know that God is working on redesigning my life in a special way. I will be living and redecorating a new place, making it my own. And in addition, I was recently offered a new job at a college library, so my life will really be changing in the next month!
As I leave behind my first place, the good-bye is bittersweet. But I also feel that this could be a good thing, a new adventure.
It’s funny how people give other people good advice but when life happens for them, then they forget to give good advice to themselves. So to change that, today I’m reminding myself something very important, and it is this—
The best is yet to come! ✨✨✨